the twins were just a faint second pink line on a cheap pregnancy test from the 2 euro shop in ireland.
NO ONE PANIC…THIS WAS TAKEN ONE NOVEMBER MORNING 2 YEARS AGO!
(again, that is an old photo…but watch, someone is going to leave a frenzied comment anyway)
that november i could never have imagined what a november 2 years in the future would look like. i was not even sure that i would really even get to have another baby…let alone twins. i wasn’t a sucker for the fairytale any longer. i had the miscarriages and negative tests to prove that it could all go wrong, very wrong, at any moment. i lived every minute of the twins’ pregnancy on the edge of my seat.
even though life now is hard and crazy and i get to complete only a quarter of what i want to do… i don’t take a minute of it for granted.
however, i never want to do it again.
we have had our fair share of babies and even if we had planned for a massive family, my heart could not take the ride now that i know not everyone gets off at the end whole.
still, i think it is a bit screwy that two years ago i was seeing doctors and having painful procedures to get pregnant with the twins, and i am now meeting with my doctor to get “fixed.”
even though we are very very certain, there is still a somber note to the acknowledgment that one is moving into the next chapter of life. especially when that was the shortest yet most lovely chapter of my book so far.
sunrise on this november morning. hanging clover’s best friends out to enjoy the melbourne breeze.
back inside. more peeks of how i start the day now…
a standing toddler’s view of my morning coffee ritual on the left
and
a boy watching the world in his backyard
what was life like for you two years ago?
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Two years ago I was getting initiated into motherhood, by my then 4 week old. He's now 2 (of course) and running wild with his 9 month old brother by his side. I was also a stalker of your photostream (still am) hoping and wishing for you two pink lines!
So appropriate I read this post today. In two years I will have a picture just like this, with twins about the same age as yours.
I just found out on Thursday that I have two gest. sacs and hopefully when I go back next Wednesday there will be two little heartbeats too. I also struggled with secondary infertility. I was lucky and only had to go the clomid route, but struggled and waited and lost as well. xoxo
congrats! i hope there are 2 strong heartbeats for you next scan!
OMG — you're pregnant!??! Kidding..
Two years ago, I was finally coming out of the fog after having a baby. She finally stopped crying everyday and I finally stopped spending every day with my a$$ stuck to an exercise ball, bouncing her up and down. It seems so long ago, but at the time, it felt like an eternity. I'm sure you can relate, Rachel! 
What a journey the last two years have been for you. Thank you for sharing your life with all of us.
heehee, the exercise ball!
Rachel, two years ago we were just celebrating Alisa's first birthday, and I was just starting to tell people that I was pregnant again having got safely through the first 3 months … I was wondering how crazy we were to be having two kids so close together, while being aware about how blessed we have been in being able to choose to do so. I was excited and overwhelmed at the same time. I was also about a week off finding out about my low-lying placenta which eventually put me in hospital for 6 weeks!! You guys arrived here just before Tom was born, and I'm so pleased that he and the twins are growing up together!!
crazy how much has happened in 2 years!
Happy belated birthday to the twins!
The picture with the coffee maker cracked me up. I remember those days of wishing I could just get a caffeine IV inserted into my arm. Arms. Both of them. Maybe straight into my jugular, too.
2 years ago I was doing the same thing as you
Peeing on a stick to see if our IVF cycle was successful. Our twins were due the same day from memory. Hasn't time flown! And although life is crazy and full on, I wouldn't change it for the world.
yes!
I had just finished my law degree, my how things have changed…and now after a year in Australia and New Zealand, I’m heading home…but persuasion of the partner to convert to the Commonwealth of Australia legal system has begun! Melbourne is the place.
P.S Rachel – you're making me want to pee on a stick! I can't at 23 – its too young for me right now. I mean I'm still wearing tee's with "Let the Good Times Roll" but damn! I'm broody!
2 years ago I was huge and 32 weeks pregnant with triplets! After 3 unsuccessful IVF's our 4th worked like a charm! About to celebrate my kiddos 2nd birthday, can't believe it! SO glad I found your blog!
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