sometimes i am just struck by the weight of the fact that we almost did not have these two babies…
if we had not decided to see a specialist
if we had not done all the tests to find my genetic issue
if we had not switched doctors
if we had not tried for one more ivf round
if the doctor had not put those 3 embryos back in
if if if
i am so thankful that we followed the path that we followed and followed it all the way to the end.
i was reading one of my favorite children’s books to gemma last night Zen Shorts
so at the time all those twists and turns sure felt like bad luck.
were they bad luck? maybe.
you just never know with anything until you ride it all the way to the end.
these next few days are going to find me reflecting more and more as saturday marks the 2 year anniversary of my family’s big move to australia.
2 years has gone so fast. we have come so far and i don’t just mean literal miles and yet we are still saying goodnight to the same moon.
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Wow that has gone by so quickly!
Wow, this is exactly what I needed to hear since I am gearing up for fertility treatments after too many losses. Really, this post helped me more than you know.
you just never know and i wish you the best outcome!
What beautiful babes…. Thankyou for this post… You give me courage, a bad day yesterday going to make it a better one today..
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Happy 2years on Sat!!
Those two babies have beautiful purpose on this earth honey.
…”still saying goodnight to the same moon.”…put tears in my eyes. So beautiful. xo
Perfect light on those babies! Gorgeous.
beautiful.
2 years does go by fast, even with kids I see every week at church. One turned 2 in May. It's hard to believe it's been 2 years since her mom was pregnant and she's already big enough to speak her mind and run around. 2 years ago, my 1st daughter was in her first year at college and my other daughter was a sophomore. Now, Sarah's in the classes specific to the nursing program and Emily is a senior in high school.
Minihorsegrl comment was really mine. Didn't realize she was logged in. We had to share a computer yesterday.
Oh, beautiful babies.
I didn't know that you weren't from here. Where did you travel all the way from with your wee family?
i am from los angeles…that is where gemma was born and these babies were made.
To think, no flickr, no blog, no life without dear Clover and Kieran? Not at all a possibility, m'dear. <3
Those darling babies have made the internet enjoyable, with some helpful nudges from Gemma along the way. Love the photos, and of course the gorgeous subjects. (:
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Thanks GOD for IVF and all those crappy shots and tears, I am as grateful for my 7 year old for the exact same reason!!!! All three of yours are such beautiful sweet kiddos…
you made my day with this post… you have such an optimistic point of view, and I love the way you face life. Somtimes, I wish it was contagious.
beautiful. in so many ways.n so many ways.
so beautiful
so very beautiful
they have the same hair! how cute!
Let me get this straight? You've been living in Austrailia for TWO YEARS? TWO YEARS?Let me get this straight? You've been living in Austrailia for TWO YEARS? TWO YEARS?
Oh crap. I started watching your Flickr back then and had I have thought off the top of my head how long ago I would have said it was 8 months ago. Then again, the twins sure aren't little babies anymore, they are toddlers. Time flies and it flies even faster when you look at the lives of internet-people (of course you're not just an internet-person, but you know what I mean). Wow, I'm so baffled by that!
Lovely photos and words. I'm agnostic, but a strong believer in things happening for a reason. Life is such a surreal experience and entity that the idea of it being a path is not that unimaginable. x
Thanks a lot for this!! Its definitely what I needed to hear, as I am very close to giving up on these fertility issues! Thank you!!
A close family member of mine is about to embark on the journey of IVF, seeing the beautiful faces of your smiling babies gives me hope that we will onw day soon have our own in our little corner of the world.
Well said, and well photographed, as usual.
What a beautiful post.
My three children came to our family through adoption. They were born in Russia. They are not biological siblings, the what ifs could consume my days if I let them. But I cannot let them because someone needs me to play hide and seek, or tie a shoe or get a snack or fend off a sibling and then it becomes even more difficult to believe that they have not always been together and always been home. What if the fertility treatments had worked and I did not have these children, my children and they did not have their siblings. You're so right, you have no idea what your blessings truly are until you've seen the whole picture. Thank you for this wonderful post. Really looking forward to your class next month.
I don't know you. I stumbled upon your blog a few months back and was just so impressed by your photography. This post was so very touching it brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing your photography, your family and your beautiful thoughts.
beautiful post. the lighting is very gregory crewdson. very touching post. it is amazing to hear your stories.
My goodness. I love your posts. I don't remember how I came upon your blog but I don't even care, I'm just glad I did! The photos, stories, and struggles you share are beautiful and I thank you!!
Perfect post.
Zen Shorts is my favourite children's book. I love that particular "short" you mention: all actions lead to the outcome, good and bad. It's all in the perception.
Australia sounds lovely for you and your family.
Tania
I just started reading your blog & I just have to tell you your photography is BEAUTIFUL. Your kids are too! I have a question… how did you get that perfect lighting in the crib photos?? It looks like the moon light!
the light is coming from one window right there at the end of their cribs…the blinds were not all the way up and it was getting dark, so the light was not strong…the rest of the room was falling to darkness. metering for that light is what kept it focused on them.
This is so timely for me as my husband and I contemplate whether or not we should go further down this path seeking more and more costly fertility treatments. I've been praying asking for guidance or a sign that we're not wasting time and money. I just had to post and say thank for being a "sign" for me.
And just think if you had become pregnant any sooner, it wouldn't have been C and K.
This is beautiful.
Your photography is brilliant and words are divine.
Love, love, love.
Please stop by my blog http://www.thoseblissmoments.blogspot.com if you get the chance
PS: How did you get that wonderful lighting in the cot photos?
I love these dark just before bedtime photos… awesome.
what a great post!! the world of "ifs" is a big one, but I love that you don't dwell on it! you have three beautiful children and you are ever so thankful for them. thanks for such a sweet and realistic message! thank you for being so honest and for entertaining me with each post you write!
Beautiful words. I also like to think that the Mayan (just to pick a civilization in time) mothers also said goodnight with their babies to the same moon.