Yesterday I lost my temper. I came upstairs to find the playroom floor covered in brand new crayons all snapped in half. (Ninety six of them…we counted later.) While I was steaming over what I saw as blatant destruction, I noticed the coloring all over the walls. I was supposed to be leaving for a night out in the city in less than half an hour and I still had to make their dinner and give them a bath. I was cross. Both Clover and Kieran would have been grounded if one can actually ground a three year old, but instead their favorite toys of the moment were grounded…put in a spot the twins can’t get to.
I embarked on the clean up of the graffiti and left the carnage of crayons to annoy me again at a later time.
Through tears of regret, Kieran sniffled something and I may have barked “WHAT?” in his direction. (Not my finest moment.) I went closer to where he was sitting (naughty spot) to hear what he had to say and he began with an apology. I was smug in my parenting until he followed with his explanation.
They broke the crayons so that each would have the same color.
Let us put aside for a moment that there are about 47 duplicates of each color already in the tub of crayons, my twins were just doing what they do best…taking care of each other. My smugness faded quickly into shame. And right there I apologized to him. I said I was sorry for not listening to them at first. I was sorry for not taking my time with them before going into monster mom mode. We cleaned up the mess, he agreed to ask me first before doing something like that again and in the midst of it all…one little peace sign eraser.
I wish I had not been so quick to get angry. I am working on that, but raising twins is hard sometimes…they back each other up and goad each other on. However, I also think it is important that my children see that grown-ups can make mistakes too and that when we do, we apologize.
Now as for all the “C”s written on the walls, let’s just say it will be hard for Clover to get through college since she is banned from using a pen again…ever….in her life…
Tomorrow we are going to take a little holiday. We are getting Kiki a sitter and hitting the road. I think we all need a break.