and i took a photo of a little building that promised to be the tallest building in the world…

and look at it now…casting a huge shadow over the same road where i sat in very hot traffic taking the photo above.

it opened today. freaky. that is some fast work.
ok, back to work i go. the burj dubai was just on the news and i had to go look for that photo in my flickr stream.

ignore the following little random string of characters…just needed to test something.
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the twins were just a faint second pink line on a cheap pregnancy test from the 2 euro shop in ireland.

NO ONE PANIC…THIS WAS TAKEN ONE NOVEMBER MORNING 2 YEARS AGO!

(again, that is an old photo…but watch, someone is going to leave a frenzied comment anyway)

that november i could never have imagined what a november 2 years in the future would look like. i was not even sure that i would really even get to have another baby…let alone twins. i wasn’t a sucker for the fairytale any longer. i had the miscarriages and negative tests to prove that it could all go wrong, very wrong, at any moment. i lived every minute of the twins’ pregnancy on the edge of my seat.
even though life now is hard and crazy and i get to complete only a quarter of what i want to do… i don’t take a minute of it for granted.

however, i never want to do it again.

we have had our fair share of babies and even if we had planned for a massive family, my heart could not take the ride now that i know not everyone gets off at the end whole.

still, i think it is a bit screwy that two years ago i was seeing doctors and having painful procedures to get pregnant with the twins, and i am now meeting with my doctor to get “fixed.”

even though we are very very certain, there is still a somber note to the acknowledgment that one is moving into the next chapter of life. especially when that was the shortest yet most lovely chapter of my book so far.

sunrise on this november morning.  hanging clover’s best friends out to enjoy the melbourne breeze.

back inside.  more peeks of how i start the day now…

a standing toddler’s view of my morning coffee ritual on the left
and
a boy watching the world in his backyard

what was life like for you two years ago?